where to begin? where to end? our story took us near the freeway today
in only one town where we could afford a decent home to raise our kids.
1400 sq feet less than we were expecting. the list in my head of all the
things i will have to sell/get rid of is making me nauseous--well, I've
been nauseous over this all for so long. so many ideas/dreams/plans
just keep getting shattered. the idea of being stuck where we didn't
want to be forever because I can't go through this again is filling me
with some looming thoughts. and to think maybe there are weeks and
months ahead to start the loan process all over again. 3 bedrooms and no
room to grow doesn't sound enticing to have more kids--i did want more.
after all that we've endured there still are no apparent
blessings---even though somehow this probably is a blessing. I'm just
ready for some not in disguise.
xo,
dedra
I'm so sorry to read of your anguish, selling,searching, moving are all so very stressful, and with that worry "are we doing the right thing?" I don't have the answers (have/am going through the same thing) but I do know you sound like a good, kind, loving and caring mother/wife and I bet you will be able to make any house into a home. Best of luck for the future x ps it's amazing how many kids can fit comfortably in a couple of bedrooms;)
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