Yesterday was awful and I now realize it didn't have to be. If you've been following you know that we were waiting to make some big progress on the house we've been trying to buy for the last year and a half. We were supposed to meet with both sides of realtors on Wednesday. Didn't happen. Then we were supposed to go see the house with some contractors on Friday. Again didn't happen. I found out that the realtor on the seller's side doesn't even have a key so the BPO that was supposed to have been done since July hasn't been done and therefore no progress is being made on the loan. Short sales are of the devil! Whoops. Did I just say that?
I went through a nosedive yesterday. I've been at the breaking point with this house for so long. I started to look for other housing for our family yesterday and that just got me feeling crankier and crankier. I'm just so frustrated that this housing dilemma we've been in for 2 1/2 years has taken up so much of my time and my thoughts that it is hard for me to focus on the most important things--my kids and hubby. I have to tell myself that I'm really not the worst mommy ever but I know I can be soooo much better. I just want to be done looking for a place to live. It takes so much time and energy. I want to put that time and energy into researching fun things to do each day with the kids on pinterest or taking them swimming or to the library, etc. I mean I Do do those things but not enough.
I went to bed last night with ideas to do with the kids and I'm not worrying about the house today. For some reason (call it fate or stupidity) we are still waiting on that house and our life just has to go on while we wait. My decisions are no longer going to take into effect whether or not we are going to move in a month or two or if I buy this now it might not work in the next house. I need to just take care of today because I'm tired of my days being wasted waiting. So someday my realtor might call and let me know the tenant is done with his vendetta and we can finally go see it. Hopefully it won't be too destroyed. Hopefully we will still be able to buy it when that day gets here. Today--I'm going to enjoy my kids and so far today, I already have.